Day #24 - 11/8/97 - 6:09PM

Geez! It's STILL RAINING! I talked to Jay yesterday and he said the same front that was bringing the rain to VA was hammering OH, too. Yesterday was the first time I had even spoken to Jay in three weeks...I mean using my voice. We've been emailing each other on a regular basis but we just hadn't talked since I left Cleveland. It's the longest amount of time in about 8 years we hadn't physically spoken to each other. I guess when you're doing a radio show together, you simply take for granted each other's company. I've worked with a lot of partners over the years (5 others before Jay). He's clearly the most talented and compassionate. (...when he's not stupid-drunk and acting like a dick.) Kidding! Kidding!

Anyway....my two boys are off camping with the Boy Scouts this weekend so my wife and I have the house to ourselves. I'm going to yell downstairs right now and ask her if she'd like to say anything....then I'll print exactly what she sez....

"Ah...Hi. Uh, wait a minute I'm thinking.....the biggest adjustment we've had to make with Corey coming home is, uh, trying to get him on a schedule. Um...he wakes up in the wee hours because his body thinks it's time for him to go to work. Um....so...however it's just great having him home. I didn't realize how empty the house was without him. Now if I could just find something to stop his snoring..."

Thanks honey.

So, we've been out of work for three weeks now. I guess it's usually around this time the first shades of doubt start creeping into your psyche. No matter how much you keep yourself pumped up, you know that deep inside, self-doubt is chipping away at your self-confidence. People ask, "How are ya?" and you casually reply, "Great.  Doin' really good." But, you know the malignancy is already there. In a month from now, if I'm still unemployed, the self-doubt will probably turn to slight panic. Two months from now, the panic will turn to fear.

Last night on the news, they said unemployment was the lowest in years: 4.7%.

It suddenly hit me: I'm in that demo.