Day #40 - 11/24/97 - 10:00PM

Turmoil.

That's the only way to describe how I feel today. As you probably know if you've been reading my entries, Jay and I have been a team for 8 years. 8 good years. Years of friendship. Years of laughter. The guy's been my best friend.

I have a job offer. A very good job offer which doesn't include Jay. This offer would bring me salary, stability and growth.

You can't imagine how difficult it's been sorting through this.

It's a classic question: "Who comes first? The family you love or the friend you love?

As a husband and parent, I know in my heart who comes first. There can only be one real answer.

I haven't signed the papers yet but I'm getting ready to.

I fear I will lose my best friend when I do. Yet, I also know the kind of person he is. There's not a mean-spirited bone in his body. He's a gentle man who probably is miscast being in a business that chews up talent as Radio does. Yet, he's also one of the most talented folks I've ever had the pleasure of working with. This is certainly not how I expected the transition to be after leaving WLTF-FM.